Topic: Racing versus running? Do I have the right mindset?
Let me set this up by saying I make a distinction between driving well and racing well: driving being the ability to go fast; racing being the ability to maintain a fast pace in racing conditions--in heavy traffic, over a long stint, at various tracks, among cars of wildly varying speeds and drivers of wildly varying skills, in a crapcan... Overall, Lemons driving and racing is impressive. For all of the drivers on track with little experience, there are few scary incidents. Further, at the pointy end of the field, the driving and racing is exceptional.
Admittedly, I was very rusty in my return to racing after a 15-year hiatus. I had a two black flags in my first two races, one for contact and one for passing under yellow. The contact was minor; I put myself in a place where another driver could not see me. East to correct. I really took the passing under yellow thing seriously and got way more disciplined about watching the corner stations. In both cases, I really should have known better and have made the appropriate changes. Since, I put one wheel off in my last four races, for which I self-reported.
Now that I have shaken off the rust, I have gotten to the point where I know which are the faster cars and give them lots of racing room and point-byes when it's is safe. However, after more than two years of Lemons racing, I want to race rather than just run our cars in Lemons. I want to race even though we may not be in the hunt for a win. I want to push both my driving and racing. The competitive juices are flowing. In all fairness, I believe I have enough experience and skill to do both and stay well within my own and our cars' limits.
Initially, I liked Lemons a lot because, although I have decades of motorsports experience, I did not have to take myself too seriously. I still enjoy Lemons immensely. The culture is great. But my mindset behind the wheel has gotten more competitive. Am I in the wrong series? Is this escalating feeling of cometitiveness common? Can I both drive/race hard (even though we are not likely to win) and embrace the don't-take-myself-too-seriously culture? Or does the culture in the paddock extend onto the race track to the degree that I should really cool it on track or go find myself another series? What's your experience been like?
--bb